Last ten days have been the
worst in years. Since the very first moment we learnt about Vani’s accident,
everything changed. Some days we felt hopeful, even when the doctor’s reports
were not that encouraging. Some other days we were scared to death, because we
could not stand just the thought of losing her.
On Sunday, the doctor told
us that there was nothing else to do, just praying. “How can they say that? How
is it possible that there is nothing to do to save her or to make her better?”.
On Monday the doctor said that she was “stable” (word that I hate) so we felt
hopeful again. Sadly, on Wednesday morning our loved and dear friend left us.
I’ve already experienced difficult
losses before, such as my dad’s. However, this time it was different. Vani is one of the best people I’ve ever had
the privilege to meet. She was funny, smart, witty, a loving mother and caring
friend and a family person. She was very responsible and extremely sensitive
and a fighter. It’s so unfair that we won’t be able to share our lives
together! She won’t be on my wedding day, she won’t see me becoming a mother
and she won’t be around to give Cinthya bad advices (haha).
My shrink used to tell me
that I can always find something good out of the bad. Even though it may seem
impossible to do so in a situation like this one, I’ve realized that is of paramount
importance to establish priorities: family and friends should always be first
in our lives. Also, that we must seize every day, every moment, every second since
we do not know which one is going to be the last. In addition, I’ve realized
how lucky I am to have friends like Cintia, Dani and Cinthya (not that I had
not known it before). They have been very supportive through all this and even
though they are in as much pain as I am, they try to stick optimistic and to
remember Vani with a smile on their faces and to bring back good memories.
It’s devastating to think
that Vani won’t be able to see Sele, Fermín and Tomi growing up. However, Vani
with her great and big heart has built beautiful friendships and now these
three kids have aunties and uncles that will love and take care of them.
I’m not supposed to talk of
Vani using the past tense; she was only 30 years old, she was not supposed to
die so soon. However, she has left us and with her she took a big piece of our
hearts and she left an enormous hollow in our souls. I’ll always remember her, I’ll
cherish in my heart all the precious moments we shared and I’ll love her children
as much as I loved her.
I love you Vani, forever
and ever!
(I’d like to finish quoting
García Márquez:
“Si supiera
que hoy fuera la última vez que te voy a ver dormir, te abrazaría fuertemente y
rezaría al Señor para poder ser el guardián de tu alma.
Si supiera
que estos son los últimos minutos que te veo, te diría “Te Quiero” y no
asumiría, tontamente, que ya lo sabes.
Siempre hay
un mañana y la vida nos da siempre otra oportunidad para hacer las cosas bien,
pero por si me equivoco y hoy es todo lo que nos queda, me gustaría decirte
cuanto te quiero, que nunca te olvidaré.
El mañana no lo está asegurado a nadie, joven o viejo. Hoy puede
ser la última vez que veas a los que amas. Por eso no esperes más, hazlo hoy,
ya que si mañana nunca llega, seguramente lamentaras el día que no tomaste
tiempo para una sonrisa, un abrazo un beso y que estuviste muy ocupado para
concederles un último deseo.
Mantén a los que amas cerca de ti, diles al oído lo mucho que
los necesitas quiérelos y trátalos bien, toma tiempo para decirles, “lo siento”
“perdóname”, “por favor”, “gracias” y todas las palabras de amor que conoces.
Nadie te recordará por tus nobles pensamientos secretos. Pide al
Señor la fuerza y sabiduría para expresarlos.
Finalmente, demuestra a tus amigos y seres queridos cuanto te
importan").
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